Feeling a bit less lonely today. ^^ Thanks to everybody who did their best to help.
Went to choir rehearsal yesterday evening... that always makes me feel better. Sometimes it can be very tedious, going over and over and over two or three bars of the piece until they're perfect. But then you sing the whole piece as a choir, and it turns out perfect, and the music is so loud that you can feel the music sheet vibrating in your hands. And you feel alive.