So it's official... next year I will not have to go abroad to study. I spoke with my tutor, and he said that my reasons for not going are definitely valid. And I won't be forced to go if I don't want to, and he will work on finding the best solution to allow me to continue my studies at best without going abroad.
*phew*
This is probably a surprise to most of you... only a handful of my friends know already, I kept my mouth shut about it for quite a long time, so don't feel bad if you didn't know. I had enough problems admitting to myself that I wasn't ready to go... heh.
Either way, I'm glad this is solved... one less stress factor in my life.